It has been a while. There’s a lot going through my mind, my life, my body.
Being a Bikram yoga teacher is always rewarding when you teach beginners, observe their process and growth. I experienced it myself for years. Thanks to Bikram yoga, I discovered myself, I started my journey towards health and detox. My passion for yoga started long time ago, but I finally committed to yoga through Bikram yoga. Also, teaching this type of yoga has introduced me to many wonderful people.
However, the past months I have been witnessing a Bikram yoga practice involving boredom, negativity and instead of progress I’m going backwards. My body is in pain. My postures are not even close where they used to be. One of the things I’ve realized is that I’m in love with yoga, not only with Bikram yoga. There’s a huge world out there in this field to learn, and one of the things that defines me is that I never limit myself to a dogma, limits, nor do I place myself inside a box.
So I decided to explore, learn new things and expand my knowledge about yoga. Ever since I got back to Miami, I’ve started again to join Kundalini sadhanas early in the mornings (when I wake up) with @sadhuserves at synergy yoga to heal and balance my energies and to grow.
Today, I started my first day of ashtanga yoga at the Miami Life Center. The experience was so different than my day to day Bikram yoga routine. The studio had air conditioning, and still lots of the yogis that were “warming up” for their class were drenched in sweat already. I saw some people aligning and helping others. It was all about their yoga practice.
The class starts, we chant mantras and I start to move along the instructions of the teacher and share a breathing rythm with the rest of the class. Sooner than I think, I’m already sweating and warmed up. Some postures were challenging and hard due to my injured left harmstring, and tight hips. There were no mirrors and I was facing another fellow yogini who practiced in front of me. It was a connection with my body and my breath, and I finally felt worked and at the same time relaxed. We finished again chanting and in a long savasana. I was as sweaty as I could have been after a Bikram class when the room is not very hot.
Despite I’ve been teaching for two years, and practiced for longer than that, I felt like a newbie with no experience. There’s a long way to go and I take this as a challenge, with a humble spirit. Maybe I improve, maybe not, but something new I will learn without a doubt.
I’m already looking forward for my next class. Today I feel good. I understand that this is not about the outcome, but about what you learn on your way. Taking it one day at a time and just letting go of everything else that is of no need at this point.
(“I honor the place within you in which the entire universe dwells. I honor the place within you, which is of Love, of Truth, of Light and of Peace. When you are in that place within you and I am in that place within me, WE ARE ONE”)